Will be checking in tomorrow for the 5th chemo. A curious mixture of sadness and happiness...happy coz this means am almost thru and will have just one more to go. Sad coz it means again 2 days away from home and away from mom's cooking and most of all away from Zoya...very tough to keep strong all the time and get through this. But it is also true that God seds positive signals and optimistic messages every once in a while and I cannot help but be thankful for those small mercies which I see.........will be writing again after am back. Pray for the strength to get thru the weekend as comfortably as the last one