Buls goes back

I came back on Sunday after the 5th chemo. Was a very smooth and short experience and except for some nursing glitches went well. Have been feeling fine physically as well. Yesterday Buls went back to the US after a wonderful stay of 2.5 months. Feeling quite low since then. Her stay was so good that we are all feeling totally empty in the house and suddenly conversations have ceased. All my life I have been the responsible elder sister to her and have been her protective, disapproving elder sibling. So much so that she used to say if she ever went to jail she would call Zahir for bail and never call me !!! In this visit of hers I felt totally different. I felt she was the elder sister and she took on the role of totally mothering me and spoiling me. Not only medically keeping a hawk's eye on the progress of my treatment but emotionally supporting me each step of the way. Encouraging me to be so postive and upbeat and strong and keeping close eye on what I wanted to do, cooking for me and entertaining me . It seems I totally lost my ability to think and used to rely on her for the simplest of decisions .I keep thinking of the endless ludo and scrabble sessions, midnite movies at Thakurpukur and endless discussions on alll topics under the sun. What I so regret that perhaps we will both never get this time back as visits in future will be always full of things to do and much shorter in duration.Her visit was what so me through the most difficult phase of my treatment these months in such a comfortable and beautiful way.........how do you thank your sweet little younger sister for that? Will miss you darling Buls