Smell the roses

Sometimes the words of Lance Armstrong as mentioned in his book seem so true ...just when he was on the recovery phase and at the last stage of his treatment one of his representative agencies pulled out of his sponsorship deal leaving him high and dry. they did not have the confidence that he would come out of cancer alive. Well not only did Lance come out he went on to win the Tour de France shortly after that. I feel that in my situation too some persons do not have the confidence I can pull through this. While family and close friends are watching me closely and are rooting me to hold on and fight this battle strongly yet others are quietly watching the fun and also planning how to move on without me. They do not feel I shall ever be my old self again. How mislaced my priorities were I realise now. I have for years focussed on things which are incidental and moved away from the core issues. God finally hit the pause button forcing me to rethink, reprioritise and refocus. One thing is for sure I will not let myself go back to the environment where people do not really care whether am dead or alive. It will not be easy to start afresh but I now have the added achievement of being a cancer survivor once am through with all this. My tour de Franc eis around the corner too. Wont be easy coz i know I shall have the temptation to slip back to my old life and comfort areas but these 6 months are teaching me that it is not worth it to lose sleep over the miles. I have to stop to smell the roses... some suggestions on how I can do that would be welcome.....