Thursday, May 29, 2008

Its ok !!!!!!

Yahoo...the biopsy report is ok. Am now officially cancer free . Am free free free. This is the silver lining that we have been all waiting for so long. I cannot believe it still and it is yet to sink in fully. The docs were amazing and whole morning have been inundated with calls from friends and family. ma who never cries , burst into tears after hearing the good news imagine. Could sense the relief in the voices of Buls and Soumya too as I spoke to them. It is a big conspiracy I tell u...I have had the gods of all religions Hinduism, Islam, Christianity, Buddhism and Sikhism on my side....Its party time !!!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

What next ??

Writing after ages. The last 2 weeks passed in a maze of confusion as we did the rounds of hospitals and doctors in delhi and Mumbai to get a definitive opinion on the next course o treatment. Was telling Zahir that I think every hospital in India will soon have a file in my name. Buls calls me the international patient as there are files of me in US too !!!We decided to go in for a Stem cell transplant eventually as that is the most comprehensive cure. Was feeling very concerned about how we would drum up sufficient resources for meeting the expenses. But we had little to worry about as without even having to voice it my brother, sister, parents, friends are standing by with money to get us through this. What an amazing support system I have. seriously I feel sometimes what have I done to deserve this. We are so blessed. As of now I am going in for a biopsy tomorrow and depending on the results will decide on next course. The only solace is the doctor who would be operating on me has himself recovered fully from this same disease 12 years back and is an example to me !!

Monday, May 5, 2008

Home

Back home !!! Came back to Delhi and home. From the time I entered home and started settling in I have begun to feel "normal ". Cannot remember the events of the last 6 months it seems. Dying to get back to my previous schedule. Met one doctor yesterday who would be the person I would be seeing most probably for the remainder of my treatment. She was so nice it was amazing. For the first time a doctor actually asked me how I was feeling and wanted to know if I was "ok" about my hair loss and facing my disease. A doctor who actually saw me as a human being and not like some dumb diseased animal as I had been used to being thought of and treated all this while at Thakurpukur !!!Anyways time to look forward and and put the events of the past behind me. Zu is a lil confused in her changed setting and she is actually missing pluto-the one being in saltlake house with whom she had a love hate relationship. But we are all settling in and Zahir cant stop grinning. He is so thrilled to have his family back!!