Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Mama neru
writing from home:-)...feels very heartening to read the various comments from friends and acquaintances to my blog...i feel great that people are so interested in my thoughts and experiences. Yesterday I made zahir shave off my head...as he was saying it was a 6 lac haircut but its not looking so bad. Sometimes a look at the mirror freaks me out too but getting used to it. Zoya keeps calling me "mama neru" meaning mommy is ganja...and she is enjoying the look !!! Baki sab fine. Getting closely monitored by Buls on my condition and ma is amazing. Rustling up all kinds of meals and persuading me to eat and be strong. Most heartwarming is the connect I have made with old friends like Reena and Reshmi who are calling everyday and sending over stuff and are so clued in that its as if they are living this experience just like me....life teaches u so many things and I am just learning I feel...well catch u guys again later..gotta go now...love to u all
Saturday, January 26, 2008
back to my second home :-)...cancer hospital. Though i was extremely down before coming it has not been such a bad experience after all. so far the chemo has been smooth and people have been nice. we have been pretty organised as well in getting stuff and planning the logistics. guess we are becoming veterans at the hospital thing.buls and me are having loads of fun, playing ludo and chatting and surfing the net...it is great ! this cancer experience has taught me to be paranoid abt every little thing...any lil ache or symptom scares me now...hope i get over this paranoia soon..ending now, will blog again tomorrow
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Top of the world
Goooood morning.....back home from that insufferable hospital day before yesterday and that worked like a 'magic pill'...feeling so much better, no nausea or weakness and got appetite back. In fact zahir claims I must be on on some "jali" chemo as I am eating like a pig and prancing abt the place.
Today is also another momentous day as Zoya went to school for the first time. Was just for 45 mins but no major disasters. Guess over the next few days she will get over the hiccups and start enjoying,Already time for the little one to fly the nest :-)
So as of now life is good with so much to look forward to. Buls will be here tomorrow and next month will be a regular family reunion with Soumya, Buls and us ......who would have planned for that...
Ok will catch u again later in the day or maybe tomorrow...cheers for now
Today is also another momentous day as Zoya went to school for the first time. Was just for 45 mins but no major disasters. Guess over the next few days she will get over the hiccups and start enjoying,Already time for the little one to fly the nest :-)
So as of now life is good with so much to look forward to. Buls will be here tomorrow and next month will be a regular family reunion with Soumya, Buls and us ......who would have planned for that...
Ok will catch u again later in the day or maybe tomorrow...cheers for now
Monday, January 7, 2008
Saturday, January 5, 2008
My fist day of Chemo
finally i got admitted in the famed thakurpukur cancer care home on the 4th of jan 08 and was immediately put into hyderation. Though the place sucks and I hate every inch here. Zahir ran up and down for 20 times to get medicines amd other items for the impending chemo. The arrangements for tomorrows chemo was also done with the Rosche lab people in Kolkata.
today is 5th jan 08 and its our 6th marriage anniversary. I rememeber the day when my father in law had declared immediately after ou marriage that we wont last even 6 months, now we are 6th year old. Today is also the start of my fight to get this demon out of me...and i know its gonna be over soon.
Unlike other families, today we wont be going out for any dinner or holidays, we wont even get a chance to see our kid, no fancy dinners or party...we will spend the day, just watching the drug go in drip by drip and kill one germ after another and take me that much closure to being fine and healthy...
today is 5th jan 08 and its our 6th marriage anniversary. I rememeber the day when my father in law had declared immediately after ou marriage that we wont last even 6 months, now we are 6th year old. Today is also the start of my fight to get this demon out of me...and i know its gonna be over soon.
Unlike other families, today we wont be going out for any dinner or holidays, we wont even get a chance to see our kid, no fancy dinners or party...we will spend the day, just watching the drug go in drip by drip and kill one germ after another and take me that much closure to being fine and healthy...
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
first day of 2008
Dear All,
First day of 2008, a nice and quiet day.Had visitors in the evening and spent the afternoon catching a bit of the movie Sholay. Received a lot of nice messages and calls from many known and unknown people. The concern and positive thoughts all around me overwhelms me.i have o choice but to be positive, optimistic and upbeat. Well lots of things to look forward to this year and I feel I shall be living life in a whole different way from this year....enuff of gyan and philosophy...let me admit am scared of the chemotherapy due to start day after tomorrow but am also feeling good thinking that once it starts it means the end is near ....so thats that.
Catch u guys again tomorrow
First day of 2008, a nice and quiet day.Had visitors in the evening and spent the afternoon catching a bit of the movie Sholay. Received a lot of nice messages and calls from many known and unknown people. The concern and positive thoughts all around me overwhelms me.i have o choice but to be positive, optimistic and upbeat. Well lots of things to look forward to this year and I feel I shall be living life in a whole different way from this year....enuff of gyan and philosophy...let me admit am scared of the chemotherapy due to start day after tomorrow but am also feeling good thinking that once it starts it means the end is near ....so thats that.
Catch u guys again tomorrow
a message from a brother
Posting a special message from a dear friend/ brother of mine ...summed up all my feelings so well
A special morning. A very new sunrise. Its been quite a ride last year. But the way you took it was extraordinary. I remember preparing myself to meet an expectedly depressed, worried and scared soul in the hospital the evening before a surgery of highest stake. And what a surprise! The most positive person was the patient herself. A lesson learnt. That made the day. And that made it your call for the days to come in the OT, in the ICU, on ventilator, on iv lines, the drugs, the drains, the overheard comments and finally through the diagnosis. Most succumb to this 'diagnosis' rather than the disease itself. Once again you lived up to your class. And the family you have! A husband who take the fight on with an unbelievable composure. A sister who's turning the world upside to get hold of every details of medical enigma that might make your journey that bit smoother. Not to say about parents, they are always that way. Even the kid has her contribution by making us realise that life goes on unperturbed. The days to come will be quite 'happening'. The chemo will flush out the disease. It might cause a few 'oops'. I know you are worried about hair loss. But if hair is the price we need to pay for head then there isnt any room for bargain. If its 'fall' now then 'spring' will also follow. For every side effect endured you will move that closer to the cure. And take care of your hands. See, my fuss continues! I'll really get under your skin to get your veins going. At this crossroad may we just stop to remember all those out there who suffer the same diagnosis. Most can't afford the CHOPs and MOPPs, or a surgery. Many dont have a family to give support. They dont have the resource to put up even the minimal fight. You are privileged to have a family like this. I am privileged to know a person like you. May this new sun bring warmth of blessings for you, your family and all those who are fighting the same. A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR.
A special morning. A very new sunrise. Its been quite a ride last year. But the way you took it was extraordinary. I remember preparing myself to meet an expectedly depressed, worried and scared soul in the hospital the evening before a surgery of highest stake. And what a surprise! The most positive person was the patient herself. A lesson learnt. That made the day. And that made it your call for the days to come in the OT, in the ICU, on ventilator, on iv lines, the drugs, the drains, the overheard comments and finally through the diagnosis. Most succumb to this 'diagnosis' rather than the disease itself. Once again you lived up to your class. And the family you have! A husband who take the fight on with an unbelievable composure. A sister who's turning the world upside to get hold of every details of medical enigma that might make your journey that bit smoother. Not to say about parents, they are always that way. Even the kid has her contribution by making us realise that life goes on unperturbed. The days to come will be quite 'happening'. The chemo will flush out the disease. It might cause a few 'oops'. I know you are worried about hair loss. But if hair is the price we need to pay for head then there isnt any room for bargain. If its 'fall' now then 'spring' will also follow. For every side effect endured you will move that closer to the cure. And take care of your hands. See, my fuss continues! I'll really get under your skin to get your veins going. At this crossroad may we just stop to remember all those out there who suffer the same diagnosis. Most can't afford the CHOPs and MOPPs, or a surgery. Many dont have a family to give support. They dont have the resource to put up even the minimal fight. You are privileged to have a family like this. I am privileged to know a person like you. May this new sun bring warmth of blessings for you, your family and all those who are fighting the same. A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR.
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